I need a job to do that is fulfilling and earns me a decent living. Or if the job isn't that fulfilling at least earns a lot of money so I can do things I aspire to where I sit now….. I've feared "having the power" before the control, or the preoccupation of leisure that would keep me from helping people at low points I've felt and fathomed in being there myself….Basically if I wasn't where I am I wouldn't be pondering on all the things to do to help…Cause if I was already well off, would I give a shit?…and I don't know the answer to that…but…in my right or as I see it just a better mind where I am, I want the fulfilling job, cause I've had jobs that paid decently, but I wasn't fulfilled at all…and also, if it's a job I just can't seem to manage, making it more an hour than other jobs doesn't make it any easier for me to do something…lol it may make it maybe slightly more bearable, but if I can't handle something I don't care how much money you offer me I can't do it, or if I do the shit will break me down internally doing it..so..I'd rather keep my sanity than make more money…but again if it was a fulfilling job, even if it was a little hard I would be more inclined to stick it out, and would perhaps GET good at it simply due to the level of importance…but…AT LEAST DECENT pay is needed…insurance and all sorts of shit you gotta have just to get around DECENTLY these days… I think cars are necessities, at least some sort of public transportation that is FREE, like a tax produced service or something…..and that's where I think electric vehicle transportation would be prime for the world right now. Anyways I digress lol along one of my fields of interest though, SYSTEMS ENGINEERING….I analyze, I like to figure out how things work…and then think of how to make them better….however…I think I have some sort of Hitch complex….I feel I can help others and other things if they listen or if I have the power to do it myself, but I seem to lack a motivational application to myself when I'm down and out…. Thanks for that intro bud 😉 … Weed is my anti depressant, cause my depression is caused by stress that the weed curbs, and the stress is brought on by my situation of feeling helpless FROM my extensive analyzing of everything almost all the time. Which I find the analyzing to be a good thing, cause I can think of many great things, I just have a tendency to be hyper aware of the shit situations and possibilities too………I just need something GOOD to keep my mind preoccupied, but also offers me decent pay, cause part of the depression to is relying on my mom to help me…and I HATE that..as much as I like the getting while doing relatively nothing in the sense of bringing money back into what I'm pulling from… I need help to get me back on my feet, I used to be better…
Btw THEO….I think being a comedian is fine, just like it's ok to just play basketball or baseball for a living…..think about that one….you're at least talking about many things….people who play games……play…games…..but anyways…that's where the power/money/influence you receive from being and doing those things, you CAN turn it into food for the world….but…as I mentioned in my short novel comment I ponder if I would be in a different state of mind had I had all the ability and situational pathways opened up before I've pondered what I have NOW…where I am…so…I think it's only natural to at least "commonly" not quite see "what's so wrong" with the world, before if you finally do start to think about it….or if it's just now getting to you even though you've been aware…and it's not your fault man….we ALL, as far as I personally know, start out blank slates in this life…even if we did come from something previous it's not like we come out the gate running with any TRUE visions of the world that we can come to see and have knowledge plus wisdom of….other than that there's blinders on until we wake up to the game we started playing long ago because it was simply all we had or knew… just chasing that cheese we do…….so…just understand shit happens, and sometimes the shit comes from us…it is in our case life….just accept, keep working hard, think of Good ways or things you can talk about that would shed light on certain things that need addressing that could better help mold our ways of seeing and pondering important things, and sometimes silly things of course…remember, if we can pull humor from death, I imagine anything above that could crack a smile and butterflies for some shine too… peAce man! beGood, even if you can't or don't feel like you're doing as good as you could….just THINK…don't keep digging at negatives, just think about the positive even if in possibility, keep HOPE, cause remember, even if you personally can't figure it out, there IS an answer….just understand it's always been out of our reach if we haven't got it now, but that's ok, that just means you're just now seeing that, just chill….you/we can figure this out…cause I'm there too, been there since 2008…hit me like a freight train without a light in the night… anyways….I do wish you the best man…I'm available for conversation about more on the matter. Till next time. : )( :
Hey Theo Brother, your the realest dude out here , love you bro!
Damn snack packs… lol
You need to be careful with forgetting to take antidepressants. Seems like you are experiencing mild withdrawals. Good that you’re on a low dose, otherwise the withdrawals would be worse. Hope u feel better soon man! Love and respect from London 😊
Theo, you've become a kick ass and well established comedian, all the stuff you were feeling about your mom- Bro, we all know she's nothing but proud of her baby boy! Keep your chin up buddy!
I like this dude. Like if Sandra Bullock & Patrick Swayze were having sex while watching Joe Dirt, Theo was born.
you're the man theo, it's rare to find a famous person who puts out such genuine material.
Crying like how he mentioned the Asshole did in his Truck? lol
Do you trust me??….. hahahha I love your videos
I need a job to do that is fulfilling and earns me a decent living. Or if the job isn't that fulfilling at least earns a lot of money so I can do things I aspire to where I sit now….. I've feared "having the power" before the control, or the preoccupation of leisure that would keep me from helping people at low points I've felt and fathomed in being there myself….Basically if I wasn't where I am I wouldn't be pondering on all the things to do to help…Cause if I was already well off, would I give a shit?…and I don't know the answer to that…but…in my right or as I see it just a better mind where I am, I want the fulfilling job, cause I've had jobs that paid decently, but I wasn't fulfilled at all…and also, if it's a job I just can't seem to manage, making it more an hour than other jobs doesn't make it any easier for me to do something…lol it may make it maybe slightly more bearable, but if I can't handle something I don't care how much money you offer me I can't do it, or if I do the shit will break me down internally doing it..so..I'd rather keep my sanity than make more money…but again if it was a fulfilling job, even if it was a little hard I would be more inclined to stick it out, and would perhaps GET good at it simply due to the level of importance…but…AT LEAST DECENT pay is needed…insurance and all sorts of shit you gotta have just to get around DECENTLY these days… I think cars are necessities, at least some sort of public transportation that is FREE, like a tax produced service or something…..and that's where I think electric vehicle transportation would be prime for the world right now. Anyways I digress lol along one of my fields of interest though, SYSTEMS ENGINEERING….I analyze, I like to figure out how things work…and then think of how to make them better….however…I think I have some sort of Hitch complex….I feel I can help others and other things if they listen or if I have the power to do it myself, but I seem to lack a motivational application to myself when I'm down and out…. Thanks for that intro bud 😉 … Weed is my anti depressant, cause my depression is caused by stress that the weed curbs, and the stress is brought on by my situation of feeling helpless FROM my extensive analyzing of everything almost all the time. Which I find the analyzing to be a good thing, cause I can think of many great things, I just have a tendency to be hyper aware of the shit situations and possibilities too………I just need something GOOD to keep my mind preoccupied, but also offers me decent pay, cause part of the depression to is relying on my mom to help me…and I HATE that..as much as I like the getting while doing relatively nothing in the sense of bringing money back into what I'm pulling from… I need help to get me back on my feet, I used to be better…
Btw THEO….I think being a comedian is fine, just like it's ok to just play basketball or baseball for a living…..think about that one….you're at least talking about many things….people who play games……play…games…..but anyways…that's where the power/money/influence you receive from being and doing those things, you CAN turn it into food for the world….but…as I mentioned in my short novel comment I ponder if I would be in a different state of mind had I had all the ability and situational pathways opened up before I've pondered what I have NOW…where I am…so…I think it's only natural to at least "commonly" not quite see "what's so wrong" with the world, before if you finally do start to think about it….or if it's just now getting to you even though you've been aware…and it's not your fault man….we ALL, as far as I personally know, start out blank slates in this life…even if we did come from something previous it's not like we come out the gate running with any TRUE visions of the world that we can come to see and have knowledge plus wisdom of….other than that there's blinders on until we wake up to the game we started playing long ago because it was simply all we had or knew… just chasing that cheese we do…….so…just understand shit happens, and sometimes the shit comes from us…it is in our case life….just accept, keep working hard, think of Good ways or things you can talk about that would shed light on certain things that need addressing that could better help mold our ways of seeing and pondering important things, and sometimes silly things of course…remember, if we can pull humor from death, I imagine anything above that could crack a smile and butterflies for some shine too… peAce man! beGood, even if you can't or don't feel like you're doing as good as you could….just THINK…don't keep digging at negatives, just think about the positive even if in possibility, keep HOPE, cause remember, even if you personally can't figure it out, there IS an answer….just understand it's always been out of our reach if we haven't got it now, but that's ok, that just means you're just now seeing that, just chill….you/we can figure this out…cause I'm there too, been there since 2008…hit me like a freight train without a light in the night… anyways….I do wish you the best man…I'm available for conversation about more on the matter. Till next time. : )( :
Hey Theo
Brother, your the realest dude out here , love you bro!
Damn snack packs… lol
You need to be careful with forgetting to take antidepressants. Seems like you are experiencing mild withdrawals. Good that you’re on a low dose, otherwise the withdrawals would be worse. Hope u feel better soon man!
Love and respect from London 😊
Theo, you've become a kick ass and well established comedian, all the stuff you were feeling about your mom- Bro, we all know she's nothing but proud of her baby boy! Keep your chin up buddy!
I like this dude. Like if Sandra Bullock & Patrick Swayze were having sex while watching Joe Dirt, Theo was born.
you're the man theo, it's rare to find a famous person who puts out such genuine material.
Crying like how he mentioned the Asshole did in his Truck? lol